I’m hiding right now.

I’ve been in PCB for about 45 minutes, and though I could have checked in 15 min ago, I’m hiding out at Panera and writing about it to kill time. I don’t know why I’m so scared. I’ve been looking forward to this for weeks. I know God is going to do incredible things. I know I’m going to meet amazing people. But right now, I’m just homesick for something familiar.

I’ve never liked the unknown. I’m not the kind of girl to walk into anything blindly, and I’m certainly not the type to do it alone. Heck, I don’t even like going to a public restroom by myself. I don’t know why I thought this would be easy. But then again, the best things never are.

Almighty God owns my heart. I want so badly to do incredible things in his name. I refuse to let me fear let me hide out on the Panera patio much longer. If you want to walk on water, eventually you have to step out of the boat.

So, here goes nothing.