Today was an absolute turn around from yesterday, but as always, not in the way I expected. Hearts are so heavy at Fuge this week, and just walking around the basketball court after worship, I could almost feel it. I’ve talked to several student today that are dealing with things I never imagined I’d hear about here, from sexual abuse to suicide.

Tonight’s sermon was the highlight of day; I would almost go so far as to call it the highlight of my camp experience. We heard two incredibly powerful testimonies, both of which hit a little to close to home for me. Up until tonight, I thought I had made peace with many of the things in my past. And though I can still say with confidence that I have found forgiveness, tonight the Lord asked me to go to that person and tell him I have forgiven him. Nothing could have shocked me more, but I heard the command loud and clear.

How on earth can I ask my students to step out on faith when the Lord calls them to do something if I’m not willing to do the same? I never dreamed I would be having this conversation, but its going to be top priority when I return home.

Its a heavy burden on my heart tonight, and its already stolen too much of my focus on the students. If you think of me tomorrow, please pray that Father will take it off my mind so I can give all my focus to my kids. With only one and a half days of camp left and so many hurting students, I want more than anything to be all here.